About 11 years ago, my ROCD & Relationship Anxiety were at its worst... 

 • Meet your mentors!

 • What you can expect

 • How to use this course

2. Psycho-education 

 • What is Relationship OCD/Relationship Anxiety?

 • Unawakened Love

 • Awakened Love

 • ROCD/RA Belief check-list

3. Cognitive and Behavioral Work

 • Cognitive & Behavioral: The Thoughts

 • Behavioral Work: Triggers, Compulsions and Exposure

4. A.W.A.K.E: Building Radical Compassion & Wisdom

 • Why Radical Compassion & Wisdom is necessary

 • The Powerful A.W.A.K.E Technique (Cut-thru ROCD/RA)

 • Building Radical Compassion & Wisdom exercise

5. Holistic Fulfillment

 • What is holistic fulfillment?

 • The Physical, Spiritual, Mental with ROCD/RA

6. Moving Forward

 • Healing (Part I)

 • Healing (Part II)

"Kiyomi, I wanted to let you know that this course has helped me so much. In the beginning, things were so difficult. I could hardly get out of bed... but, now I have days where I feel finally feel normal again and days where I feel in love again with my partner. Something I hadn't experienced in months. Thank you... you've helped me so much..." - Rebecca, 22 (Illinois)

★★★★★

"How can I ever thank you enough? I have to confess, this is more of a long letter then a testimonial but I think you can filter the important things out, right? It is hard for me to write a short letter because all of this is a huge part of my life and it will always be. But now, where do I start? Before meeting you, the course and the community, I never felt so much pain and anxiety inside my body. I really thought that nothing could help me and I would always be like that. Always scared and sad. Not enjoying a little thing. Even thought about wanting to disappear or sleep because then I would’nt feel anything. Honestly, it’s so hard to write it but also thinking about being dead. Not that I wanted to left my life and all my lovely friends and family, but life was too hard to live with the ROCD. I couldn’t do it anymore. My body was screaming for peace and calm. 

Then, some day, searching for answers on the internet again, I found you Kiyomi. On YouTube. I remember that I couldn’t believe I finally knew that the horrible thing we call ROCD now, was actually a thing. For years I was searching for a name so I knew I wasn’t crazy, but most important, it was not my relationship! It was a weight loss, such a relieve. I still can’t describe the feeling to know that it was not my now husband Niek who was the wrong man to be with. All the time it was the ROCD.  

I remember writing my first e-mail to you and then looking and refreshing my mailbox every minute, just waiting for your answer. I was feeling and thinking like you were my last option. Your answer came a couple days later. Niek and me were at our best friends, discussing our wedding. I remember going to the toilet and have a quick view at your e-mail. I was so overwhelmed by your answer. Had tears in my eyes. My journey had already started by seeing a therapist, but at that point I thought maybe it really can get better.  I was working my ass off by working on the course, sessions with my therapist, being part of the community, reading a lot of articles and books, doing mindfullness and so on. Also taking medication so I could at least sleep. Slowly, the calm and peace turned back in my body. My healing was everything but easy. This period in my life was the most horrible time I’ve ever experienced. Sometimes I really had the feeling that I was over it and then the next day I was crawling trough the day again. Right on time, I had the ROCD in my power. Because my wedding day was coming. I still can’t believe how calm and brave I was on that day. Like I had a angel on my shoulder who protected me the whole day. I enjoyed every single minute of that day. Cried a lot because of all the joy inside my body. For me it was a commitment to my best friend but also a new chapter with no space for the monster ROCD anymore. Of course some days are still hard. But isn’t that life? I can’t feel perfectly fine every day. The anxiety is a part of me and sometimes I even need it. Then I think about the work I’ve done and can reset my mind.  People from the community are asking me questions on a private messenger on Facebook. To talk to them and help them even helps me. It’s amazing what this community can mean for us and what it can bring us all. I think to know that you’re not alone in this and talking to people who are also experiencing ROCD, was the most important step for me in my healing.  Kiyomi, no words can describe what you’ve done for me. You really changed my life. By meeting you, the course and the community I can breath again and I married my best friend. I hope I will ever meet you in the future and please, keep doing what you are doing because you’re a life saver and my angel on my shoulder!

- Annemijn, Netherlands

★★★★★

"For many years my rOCD was so severe it became debilitating, not only towards my relationship, but also my daily life. Things like my job performance, taking care of my personal health, and keeping close friendships became a challenge. I continuously felt anxious and drained because the majority of my energy would be spent obsessing whether or not I loved my partner, and whether or not we were meant to be together. The worst part was, when I would get stuck in these obsessive states, they would feel endless. Eventually my brain started to believe that my rOCD was permanent and that I would never feel “normal”. It wasn’t until I stated getting help from Kiyomi that I began to slowly realize that I am in control, and that I can change the way I think and feel.   

For me, the hardest part about overcoming rOCD was truly recognizing that these viscous cycles of obsessive thinking can be broken, and that the intrusive thoughts and bad feelings about your relationship don’t necessarily mean anything at all. They are just thoughts, and no matter how horrible you may feel at the time, or how damaged you may think your relationship is from rOCD, with hard work and dedication, you can regain happiness. Overcoming rOCD is no easy task. It certainly takes lots of time and someone special like Kiyomi to help guide you through recovery. Not only is Kiyomi is one of the kindest and most passionate people I’ve met, but she has also put forth methods of rOCD therapy in a way which no other therapist has done. Her podcast, YouTube channel, and website are extremely helpful and well organized. She has also created a private Facebook community in which rOCD sufferers can share their stories and converse amongst each other. Kiyomi has done so much for me and the rOCD community, that no words can describe how thankful I am to have been given the personal support, and the necessary tools needed for recovery. Kiyomi continues to evolve and grow this community every single day and I would highly recommend anyone who suffers from rOCD to give her course a try!"" - Matt 

★★★★★

 "You really don’t know how much you have helped me. I honestly do not know where I would be right now if it wasn’t for your wonderful techniques and mindfulness teachings. I just want to thank YOU for all the amazing hard work you’ve put in for the course as it’s brought such awareness for people like myself. To go to sleep at night knowing that there is actual light at the end of the tunnel, even in my darkest of places, is all because of you" - Lucie, 20

★★★★

"Thank you, Kiyomi and Alexis. Thank you so much. You have both helped me so much. I really don't know what I would have done without the both of you and all of your help in the course and also through therapy!" - Monica, 28 (Ibiza, Spain)

★★★★★

"This community and this course has really helped beyond what words can explain! It's just been such a weight off my shoulders to just know that I'm not alone. I used to avoid hanging out with my friends because I was constantly triggered. My obsessions about my partner used to be so bad that I felt I was in a prison every moment of the day. I can't thank Kiyomi enough for this course. The relief I've felt is something I haven't felt in years..." - Anika, 18 (Mumbai, India)

★★★★

"Ever since I just started doing the ROCD course, I've felt peace and calm I haven't felt in a long time. It brings tears to my eyes thinking about it."

- Sara, 27 (Provence, France)

★★★★

"Kiyomi, you have helped me immensely during my experiences with ROCD. I had felt that ROCD meant that I was in an unhealthy relationship, or in some ways what i was experiencing was wrong. I honestly could not imagine getting through this period without you." - Sophie, 29 (Pennslyvania)

★★★★

 "I never believed in my ability to beat ROCD. I didn’t even want to accept that i had anxiety about my partner to begin with. I spent countless days doubting, crying, and wallowing in my own self pity. I remember when I first came across Kiyomi's story. How young she was, yet how brave as well, which was exactly what I needed to hear. I remember contacting her and begging for help and answers. I had fallen deep into despair. “How am i going to do this?” “I can’t do this” “I don’t want to do this”. All phrases my fragile soul knows all too well. Kiyomi’s kind wisdom lifted me up and comforted me in the way a mom’s warm soup would when your down with a cold. Her kind words were the soothing balm my mind so desperately craved. It’s as if she grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the light of acceptance. Acceptance of my thoughts, my emotions, and my anxiety as a whole. Because of her, I’ve come to truly accept my partner and the obsessions i've had toward him in a different light. I cannot thank her enough. For anyone young wanting to buy this course and get into it, and you’re scared because of your age, or scared because you won’t think it’ll work. just do it. I promise you, you will feel so much better." -Ashley, 22 (Texas)

★★★★★

"This course was so helpful, and it helped me make sense of all of the uncertainties and fears about my relationship. I was better able to articulate to my therapist what I was going through, and we were able to determine a plan of action for recovery. Kiyomi promptly responded to an email I sent to her, and it encouraged me to stay positive. Kiyomi, thank you so much for creating this program!"

- Anonymous (California)

★★★★★

"I really appreciate the guidance and support that Kiyomi has provided me. Having been given the valuable tools to equip me in my recent marriage, I have learned and become convinced that love is truly about action and sacrifice, not just feelings. This has prepared me for an amazing journey that I know is meant to be a true blessing from God, not a source of anxiety."

- Jake 

★★★★★

"People never talk about the positives that come out of stuff like (rOCD) but here are positivies that have changed my life since taking this course: I have met an incredible community of people who actually get me. They have the same obsessions, doubts, fears as me. They've become my friends from all over the world and it's helped me so much in my recovery. This course has also helped me finally accept ME, and no, that doesn't mean leave my partner, because I am still with my partner to this day! It's also helped me understand what love is, that it's a choice. So, not only did I learn how to manage ROCD, I learned how to love myself for the first time."

- Mary (Delaware)

★★★★★